the I Cannot Tahan list

Just suddenly thought of doing a list facts. Muahaha  X)

1.    I cannot tahan smokers smoking in non-smoking area. Are you blind? There's a sign board there.
2.    I cannot tahan when Eugene hogs the bathroom. And he purposely taking his time in there when I desperately must go in.
3.    I cannot tahan guys randomly messaging girls on social network. God please make sure they'll remain dateless forever if they keep doing this.
4.    I cannot tahan guys being too forward and asking for girls's number in the virtual world.
5.    I cannot tahan whoever donates 5 cents instead of the RM50 notes in their wallet.
6.    I cannot tahan students who pretend to be poor everytime I ask for the one ringgit class fund.
7.    I cannot tahan when they pretend to forget that they owed me $$$.
8.    I cannot tahan people who sweet-talk others into working for them. I'm not your slave. Okay!
9.    I cannot tahan drivers who cannot park their cars properly and appropriately.
10.    I cannot tahan drivers who hog two parking spaces.                                                      
11.    I cannot tahan people who shamelessly say they are freakingly cute all the time. Once in a while it's okay.
12.    I cannot tahan sarcastic bitch. God please seal their mouth.
13.    I cannot tahan friends telling me to chill when I'm angry. I don't know why.
14.    I cannot tahan when she thinks she's right even though 9 out 10 thinks that she's wrong.
15.    I cannot tahan lousy customers service. If so "beh song", you might as well don't work.
16.    I cannot tahan being cooped up in my home during the school hols. I'll literally go mad. I need to hang out with friends.
17.    I cannot tahan girls laughing at other people's misery.
18.    I cannot tahan girls bragging about their bfs.
19.    I cannot tahan aunties bragging on how rich and successful their children are. Okay, auntie, I get it, your children earns 6-7 figures income and blah blah blah.
20.    I cannot tahan people who are "kedekut ilmu". My goodness.
21.    I cannot tahan when my amah's Thai curry chicken decided to have a wild party in my stomach. Still, I love her curry chicken. I think my stomach is not engineered to digest spicy food.
22.    I cannot tahan when my parents lectured me early in the morning. Because it will severely ruin my suppose-to-be-an-awesome day.
23.    I cannot tahan strangers who unneccessarily tag me in her products' photos. Should not have accepted their friend request in the first place.
24.    I cannot tahan when I'm money-less and not getting what I want when I want it.
25.    I cannot tahan eating steamboat for 3 meals in a row for 3 consecutive days.
26.    I cannot tahan when two persona bitchin' each other behind their back.
27.    I cannot tahan MCA partly because I think they don't really do anything for us Chinese.
28.    I cannot tahan eating in darn lousy kopitiam mainly because once they forgot my order. And stupidly I waited for 45 minutes. Okay!
29.    I cannot tahan kopitiam that locked their toilet and don't allow their customers to use it. Just because they are too lazy to clean up.
30.    I cannot tahan disgusting toilet. Especially toilet bowl with shit stains in it. Clumps of hair everywhere. As though someone had chemotheraphy there. How can I shit in such condition! But I figured shit stains on toilet bowl are always better than shit stains on my pants.
31.    I cannot tahan not gentleman man. They shamelessly don't give up their seats for amah and pregnant ladies.
32.    I cannot tahan myself having frustrating impulse to say things on the spot without thinking.
33.    I cannot tahan when parents think that blogging is for lifeless people.
34.    I cannot tahan pimple. I hope someone can kill me with a fork.
35.    I cannot tahan when I get excluded from a group of friends.
36.    I cannot tahan my mom who cannot tahan camwhore-ing.
37.    I cannot tahan when the guy I crushed on giving me hints that's not into me. Wth. I hope someday bird shits drops on your face.
38.    I cannot tahan Malaysian education system.
39.    I cannot tahan Indonesians.
40.    I cannot tahan guys' obssession over Ultraman, Superman or whatever "man" that existed on the market.
41.    I cannot tahan co-ed school.
42.    I cannot tahan when I'm grounded.
43.    I cannot tahan my mom when she cannot tahan seeing me facebook-ing.
44.    I cannot tahan football.In fact I cannot tahan World Cup. Don't understand the whole World Cup fever thing.
45.    I cannot tahan when I can't blend in among the Chinese girls.
46.    I cannot tahan girls who purposely talk in a soft tone. Just because she thinks it's cutesy. But isn't it frustrating to talk to them and have them reply in such dulcet tone that you can't hear a thing?
47.    I cannot tahan Cikgu Sofia and Cikgu Norma. They are the most insane teachers I've ever met.
48.    I cannot tahan teachers who show favour to intelligent students.
49.    I cannot tahan my temper. Who I've actually inherit this from? Papa? No Mommy? Maybe both.
50.    I cannot tahan Justin Bieber. Everyone's talking about him. I don't get it. Ok I'm going to hell *resigned

Doubts

I'm having doubts at this moment. 


There this reunion at the camp. I know I wanted to go so much. But when it comes to asking permission from my parents, I'm a real coward. 


I'm so different from my little brother. He always has courage to ask anything even though he knows that they wouldn't give him the green light. Well, at least he did try. No regrets, right?


As for me, it's really hard. It really is. When I was a child, I often hear 'NO' rather that 'YES' from them. And each time, 'NO' makes so sad and I cried. I can't bear to hear another 'NO' from them. Like seriously. 


I know I'm sensitive and emotional too. I just can't help it. I'm sorry but this is me. 


And I still remember vividly how I ask permission from them to buy a camera. I've been saving up an amount of money which is enough for me to buy a decent camera. And that day, I mustered all the courage in me and I went to them. Before I even finished my words, my eyes were welled up with tears. Then, he asked, 'Why are you crying? I didn't even say 'NO' yet.'


Good news is he let me buy a camera. My first camera. It's Nikon Coolpix S1000pj. Yeah, I'm the proud owner of the first built-in projector. =)


Back to this reunion at camp, I'm wanna say sorry to all my friends especially Syafikah. I haven't actually tell them about this. And what more ask their permission. 


I know today is already 13. The reunion will be on 18. I'm a real coward. I feel bad as Syafikah is a Penang girl and she can even manage to beg persuade her mother to drive her all the way to Perlis. 


As for me, I'm a Kedah girl. It only takes 1 hour 45 minutes to reach the camp.  


But the point is it's Sunday. My parents work on Sunday. I can't figure out a way to persuade them to let me go.

I really want to go. I miss the camp so much. 


I wish that something will come up on 18. At least I have an excuse for not going rather than not attending the reunion with no apparent reasons. This is sucks. 


Yeah, I know I can car pool with the others. But, gosh! They are kinda over protective parents. I don't even have to ask them. They will definitely say 'NO'.


 Sigh. I should decide now. So much to think about.

I know. I know. Everyone ask me to stop complaining and just ask them only. But there's so much to think about before asking them.

If you don't do it now, you'll only regret it.

I know. I know. If I never try, I'll never know. *sighs

The Truth

I've been keeping this to myself not quite long ago. Probably since this.

How should I put my thoughts into words? I'm not angry or whatsoever. I'm disappointed actually Even after so many days. I had no one to talk to. Or I don't feel like sharing this to anyone.


Or I can't find anyone that can understand this. I don't know.

Anyway, I guessed she doesn't know about this. Since she left, I worried sick of her. I missed her like crazy. Do you know that? Do you!

But on April 4, she came to Alor Setar for Cheng Beng. 

Without giving me a call. Not even a text from her either. No messages were left at Facebook from her. =(

Am I being sensitive or what? I just not quite sure about this.

And till the last day which is also her birthday, I found that she came back to Alor Setar since Sunday (April 4). 

Gosh!  

*sighs 

At first, I comforted myself with the thought that I can with her till late night. Instead, she wanted to sleep. At 11 p.m. 

When was the last time I slept at 11.p.m.?

But thanks to her sister, she's back online at MSN. 

I've actually broke my record for the first time. Chatted with her till 4 a.m. By the time it's 4, I can't stand it and I dozed off.

Zzzzz

Talking about her birthday post, I was little disappointed. Scratch that.

I am really disappointed. Because she didn't read it immediately. I know I'm sensitive. But it's important to me, you understand what I mean so far?

Anyway, at least she did read the post and left her comment there.  =)

I love her. Muacks. XOXO

Confessions

 i heart munchies

I've confessions to make-I thought of doing this not that long ago. And I think it's about time for me to list it all out.So, here is it!

1. I'm afraid of the dark.

2. I can't sleep in a room if the door is OPEN.

3. I hated the way I look.

4. I've felt like dying from embarrassment.

5. I've cheated on a test.

6. I am bisexual.

7. I believe in true love.
8. I shut others out when I'm sad.
9. I open up to others easily.
10. I am keeping a secret from the world.
11. I've seen the opposite sex naked.
12. I am a sucker for BROWN eyes.
13. I love PREPPY GUYS.
14. I've slipped and fell in public.
15. I talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
16. I've been caught doing something I wasn't supposed to do.
17. I thought my cousin was hot.
18. I am not guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. That's her.
19. I am self-conscious.
20. I love to laugh.
21. I have tried alcohol.
22. I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
23. I can't swallow pills.
24. I like chocolate.
25. I am not comfortable with being me.
26. I play computer games when I'm bored.
27. I've gotten lost in the city.
28. I've thought of suicide before.
29. I've been in a fist fight.
30. I laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.  
31. I pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
32. I've kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose.
33. I drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
34. I've gotten the chicken pox.
35. I had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
36. I had a crush on a teacher/coach.
37. I've cried over someone.

38. I have a major crush on someone right now.

39. I saw someone/something dying.
40. I have a list of people I want to kill.

41. I've cried myself to sleep.

42. I've eaten sushi.
43. I've eaten sushi and I puked after that.
44. I've cried in public.
45. I liked someone even though I knew you shouldn't have.
46. I thought of someone a lot lately.
47. I HATE the world.
48. I watched porn.
49. I had a "dirty" dream.
50. I am TOO shy to ask someone out.
51. I chase the cats but being chased by the dogs.
52. I've fallen asleep at work/school.

53. I've cheated while playing a game.

54. I've been lonely.

55. I had detention before.

56. I don't trust men.

57. I hate frozen ice-cream.
58. I cried while eating melted ice-cream.
59. Guy friends are heartless.
60. I've thought of going into the army.

Okay, the list finished and I feel somewhat relieved. Perhaps, I should do this from time to time.

My True Colours

"Oh today I missed out a post I MUST blog at least a post"

This is not blogging. That will only make make my blog focus on QUANTITY instead of QUALITY. Since I have nothing to blog, why not I just take a break and think of a content that will impress my readers. *lame excuse

But in turns out, I took more than I actually need. *guilty

Deep down, I know I haven't been as hardcore blogger as I tried to make myself to be.

It was exactly 4 days since my last post on cecilia's birthday. 

Anyway, so here I am now updating my blog.

For these few days, I was kinda lost direction on blogging. It was like I don't have the blogging mood in me anymore. But then I came across this at The AllMalaysian Bloggers Project:

Blog whatever that comes to your mind. A blog is someplace you can freely show your true self. So be yourself.

Don't blog for the SAKE of other! Your blog is uniquely yours and only one of its kind, don't compare your blog with others as different bloggers have different blogging styles.

And also from my point of view is that blogging it's like an online journal of my life (since I named it my lil diary) minus my messy handwriting and paper cuts.

So right now, I'm writing about things I know and about things that interest me. People will see the genuine intentions, and that's what draws them to my blog. I think. I hope so. *finger crossed Not that I'm desperate.

Anyway, talking about things that interest me at this moment must be Hotel City.

 via [Here]

Because it's one of Playfish games. Plus, it's a brand new one.

Stay up to date with all the latest news from Hotel City including gifts, tips and loads of surprises by following them on twitter.

From Restaurant City to Pet Society and now Hotel City. You can say that I'm a fan of Playfish games. Who doesn't? Unless you think that playing games is childish. Or boring. 

via [Here]

But, I just couldn't resist playing them. I'm not addicted to it though. I love their creation so much. It's cute.

Did I tell you that from Thursday 1st April until Monday 12th April you can take part in the celebration and earn up to 10 Playfish Cash!

How to participate:

• Players who play Hotel City between 1st April 2010 at 00.01am GMT (start date) and 15th April 2010 at 11.59pm GMT (end date) can receive up to 10 Playfish Cash to be used across all Playfish games supporting Playfish Cash. Playfish cash will be rewarded as follows:

• Install Hotel City and complete the tutorial to earn 2 Playfish Cash!


• Play Hotel City and reach level 10 to earn another 4 Playfish Cash!


• Play Hotel City and reach level 25 to earn yet another 4 Playfish Cash!


• Users who install the game after the period of promotion won't qualify for the respective 'install reward'.

• Users who reach level 10 and level 25 after the period of promotion won't qualify for the respective 'level 10 reward' and 'level 25 reward'.

• Your Playfish Cash will be credited manually to your account by Friday 16th April. To receive your Playfish Cash you need to read and accept Playfish's Digital Services Agreement (for use, expiration and limitation of Playfish cash.) You will be asked to accept the Playfish's Digital Services Agreement after completing the tutorial and after reaching level 10 and level 25.


• This promotion is open to all territories.

Check in to Hotel City, Playfish's latest offering that lets you and your friends design and run your own hotel!

I've created a BloggerUnited  account long ago and have yet to be active in the community. When I finally think it's is probably a good time to start, there was some kinda error on their page which I have no idea what it was. 

Just now, I tried to load their page again and it showed 'will be back soon'. This is odd. Has this happened before? Or am I the only one experiencing this. I have no idea.

Okay. I guessed that's all for now.

I Miss Her Terribly

 hey, i grabbed this from joern's FB. the girl in pink is the one. I Heart Her.

It's been a week since she left with the others. Things just don't feel the same when she's not around. Facebook is so quiet without her and also them. The day before she left, I had remained in my room for the whole day, refusing to talk to anyone. At night, sleep would not come to me. I found myself tossing on the bed. On reflecting back, we have gone through many things together that makes our friendships stronger.

My thoughts began to stray. Soon, I found myself sinking into reverie of thoughts. A smile etched out on my face as happy memories our school life filled my mind. Unable to keep my emotions in check, silent tears fell from the corner of my eyes. Not knowing what else to do, I'm writing his post to dedicate to you. 

Since you left, there was no one, I could confide in what more share my intimate feeling, my fears and apprehension with.  Most of the time, I cried myself to sleep. I wish she was here with me. But to let her go is for her own good. The new environment she's staying for the next 3 months will shape her into a person with self confidence especially.

Hey, you still remember the poem I wrote for you last year. But, I'm not that good on poetry. I tried my best for this one. Anyway, this poem means a lot to me. I hope that you still like it.

You are like the Sun
In the sky
That gives earth heat and light
My world has changed
Since the day I met you
You have shown me that the world is
A better place to live in

You are like a walking stick to me
If I ever lose my sight
I know I will pull through
As you will be there for me
Holding my hand
And guiding me, through thick and thin
Fearless of the crooked, bumpy roads
Or any obstacles in my life.

You are like the Befrienders to me
When I am the lowest ebb of my life
When the rest of the world seems to desert me
When I needed them most
However, I know I will get through this
As I can always turn to you
For emotional support
I know you would stand by me
You are someone that I can lean on
Someone that I can trust

You are like an umbrella to me
Day in and day out
Protecting and shielding me
From under the sweltering heat
From the pouring rain
From the unpredictable weather
When you are at my side
I feel the warmth you exude

You are like a lifebuoy to me
If I am ever thrown into the sea
When my life is in jeopardy
When my lungs are desperate for air
Somehow, I know I will survive
If I cling on you
Because there is this faith in you

You mean everything to me
You are the one who is
Always there for me
Cheering me up
Bandaging my wounds
Clearing up my mess
Easing my pain
From being hurt in my daily life
You are everything to me

I am blessed to have found you
You are without doubt
My greatest treasure
If it were not you,
I won’t know
If I will ever get through
The challenges in my lives

To be honest, I still keep the letter you gave me when I was 12. You thought that we will be on different tracks when we leave our primary school. Somehow or rather, we ended up studying in the same school for another 5 years at secondary school. But actually is 4 years as you transferred when you was in Form 3. Too bad was I don't know where the hell the letter go. I kinda misplaced it again. Sighs. Old habits die hard. You know what I mean. I'm always like that.

Boredom Drives Me Crazy!

Camwhore! This is normal because I'm a girl. Ain't it? I've been cooped up at home ever since I came back from my NS camp. Gosh! I don't normally post it up here. *i swear On my blog. No, I don't. First time.

this is my fave. nice right?

OMG. i don't know what got into my head. so formal.

i'm acting cute for no reason. =.='''

i'm just a plain girl. sighs.

i hate this. i looked f-ugly, i know.

But I've got bored after a few snapshot. *ugghh Hey, what do you normally do when you are bored, huh? Need some suggestions here to pass my FREE time. Like seriously. I can't go on like this. I've been stuck at this routine of mine. Eat, sleep and online routine. If you have anything in your mind, please leave me comments. I'm depending you, okay?