You Raised Me Up

I was once a troubled kid ever since primary school. Have I changed for the better? *sighs A little. So I still feel like crap. Hell yeah! Most of the time. Emotionally unstable. Mood swings. Negative thinking. The same troubled kid like I've used to be. Anyway, at least I've try to look on the bright side. *winks

When there's one point in my life where I wanted to end everything by committing suicide, she's the one that get me out of my silly thoughts. She's the one I have pour all my heart to. She's the one who will constantly give me advice when I'm in need of help. She's not one of my family members or even my friends. She's my two consecutive years English teacher. She's none other than Madam Chua. And I'm lucky to be in her class. 

There's this journal writing she introduced to my class which is my first big step to open up my mind. Even though I've graduated from that school, I still treasure my journal dearly. As time passes, I find that this journal has become some sort of a place of interaction between us. We were literally chatting on that journal of mine. I shared my personal thoughts and agendas in life. From the silly things to my dreams for my future. Without realization, that journal had created a bond between us. 

Without her, I do not know how to survive my senior year at Convent. :/ Thanks to her unconditional love and continuous moral support, I've finally found my true self. With all the things she had taught me, I'll keep it in my heart and bring it to the next chapter of my life. *weeps Even though, I've left Convent but I will forever remember you, teacher.

Fear less, hope more, whine less , breathe more, talk less, say more, hate less, love more, and all good things are yours.

I Survived Wirajaya

 cooking rice using mess tin for the first time in my life

 ta-daa i've succeeded

 Mayrin, Masthura and Fen were busy eating nom nom nom

they were busy pitching up our tent

Wirajaya was held at Hutan Simpan Tasik Meranti. Approximately 2km from our camp. We started our journey around 5 p.m. Guess what! We had our hand phone together with us on wirajaya. It sounds weird. Isn't it? Hand phone during camping. Well, perhaps this is modern way of doing things. Haha. My camping buddies were Mayrin, Fen and Fifah. As usual, the first thing we have to do on camping will definitely be pitching up tents. Like duh. Anyway, I hate pitching up tent. Like seriously. It's so hard to find all those sticks. Everything has to be right size and the right type. My God. So troublesome. Because of that, I tripped and fell. *embarrassed Shoot me for being so blind. Bang bang. *sighs Next up was dinner. No doubt, we have to cook our own rice. Thank God the trainers help me. I'm sorry, I've never cook a single thing in my life. *shamefaced As it was my first time camping, I do not how to manage my time. And guess what?! I ended up not having my bath at all. Till the next morning. I even forgot to brush my teeth. And I ate breakfast too. I actually realized that on the way back to our dorm. *eww It's disgusting. I know. By the way, I'm not the only one that stinks. All of us. Not even one bath that day. Haha. Super stinky people. And during the night confidence, we have to walk around the jungle alone. Without our friends. *creepy But actually there were trainers hiding everywhere, checking on us. They were making some freaky noises when we passed them. I ain't freaked out, trainers! Not at all. It was adventurous, by the way.  FYI, I tripped and fell. Again. Ended up having bruises on both knees. How pathetic! The next thing I know, I can't even squat down. It was so pain. Like seriously. *shamefaced It was hilarious to see that Haseena went on screaming in the jungle. And crying at the same time. *shhh Don't tell her. Haha. Even during flying fox, she kept on screaming from the top till she landed. Haha.