Just Me Again Down Here for the Last Time

I promise. This will definitely be the one last time. *finger crossed Because I realized that there will be more things gonna happen in my life though I'm so bored in my house right now.  Someday. I can't keep on writing on this. I have to move on writing on other stuff. That's for sure. *nodding my head Even though, I have stopped writing, it doesn't mean I am gonna forget everything there. NS moments will continue to live on as it has changed my life. Every hour I've spent together with them there lives within my heart. I'm a new person. No longer the girl you used to see. No longer the shy, quiet girl that you usually see at the inconspicuous corner. I'm not her. Not anymore. And I'm proud for who I am today. I definitely do. NS taught me to do things that I have never ever thought of I'm going to do this in my life. As I move on, I will remember all the times I had together with my friends there. No matter how my life gonna change, we will still be friends forever. I promise. I kept on asking myself. Will these memories fade if I stop writing? And I found an answer within my heart. I will not. As I have this blog to relive my NS moments every now and then. *winks

I Survived Wirajaya

 cooking rice using mess tin for the first time in my life

 ta-daa i've succeeded

 Mayrin, Masthura and Fen were busy eating nom nom nom

they were busy pitching up our tent

Wirajaya was held at Hutan Simpan Tasik Meranti. Approximately 2km from our camp. We started our journey around 5 p.m. Guess what! We had our hand phone together with us on wirajaya. It sounds weird. Isn't it? Hand phone during camping. Well, perhaps this is modern way of doing things. Haha. My camping buddies were Mayrin, Fen and Fifah. As usual, the first thing we have to do on camping will definitely be pitching up tents. Like duh. Anyway, I hate pitching up tent. Like seriously. It's so hard to find all those sticks. Everything has to be right size and the right type. My God. So troublesome. Because of that, I tripped and fell. *embarrassed Shoot me for being so blind. Bang bang. *sighs Next up was dinner. No doubt, we have to cook our own rice. Thank God the trainers help me. I'm sorry, I've never cook a single thing in my life. *shamefaced As it was my first time camping, I do not how to manage my time. And guess what?! I ended up not having my bath at all. Till the next morning. I even forgot to brush my teeth. And I ate breakfast too. I actually realized that on the way back to our dorm. *eww It's disgusting. I know. By the way, I'm not the only one that stinks. All of us. Not even one bath that day. Haha. Super stinky people. And during the night confidence, we have to walk around the jungle alone. Without our friends. *creepy But actually there were trainers hiding everywhere, checking on us. They were making some freaky noises when we passed them. I ain't freaked out, trainers! Not at all. It was adventurous, by the way.  FYI, I tripped and fell. Again. Ended up having bruises on both knees. How pathetic! The next thing I know, I can't even squat down. It was so pain. Like seriously. *shamefaced It was hilarious to see that Haseena went on screaming in the jungle. And crying at the same time. *shhh Don't tell her. Haha. Even during flying fox, she kept on screaming from the top till she landed. Haha. 

You Rocks, Paan!

FYI, that's Paan

He won the single kayak competition with Tai. Congrats to him. Umm, and of course to Tai too. Though I've never talk to him before. Anyway, Delta won the double kayak too. As for me, I participated the rakit competition with another 9 Delta's girls. FYI, we didn't win. *sighs There were some problems before, during and after that competition which I don't wanna talk about it.  T_____T So, I just have to skip it. It's long story, by the way.

that's wira Delta

that's wirawati Delta and I'm one of them

can you spot me?

We're On Duty

our company's leader, pak dragon

On February 21, Delta were on duty for our camp's Family Day. Surprisingly, it was my birthday too. *yippee So, I've celebrated my 18th birthday there with my NS peeps. Hehe. I've actually invited two of my closest buddies to my camp. Sad to say, one of them couldn't turn up due to health problems. However, the party must go on. Though, I've secretly wished she was there. I wanna show her how my camp looks like so much. T_____T Well, that's just my luck. *sighs  

he's still busy text-ing OMG wait till cikgu nathan sees this!

Anyway, I've invited extra people who are not from Delta : Ayie and he brought one of his Alpha's friend, Firdaus, Yu Zheng, nickname, Robot, Wanni, Yunice, Yvonne, Yee Teen and Wei. I guessed that's all. The rest 20 of them are from Delta. *yikes That's too many. Anyway, thank God, there's enough food for everyone. Not to mention, there's trainers, the squad leader and the other NS peeps there. *relieved Everyone was full including the trainers. Thanks to my mom for buying such a huge cake. *big, shiny eyes Well, it's official! I'm finally 18.  By the way, there were not much cars up there on that day as CNY holidays just ended. Thank God. Again. Not much of work I had to do.  And because of that, we walked aroud the marching filed, snapping pictures here and there as if there's no one business. *yikes Luckily, Cikgu Nathan was understanding enough. If not, he'll normally shouts, "You, mau makan ubat kah?" Listening to this will absolutely sends shivers down our spine. FYI, his ubat means knocking on our forehead and smashing on our pretty face. Thank God, only boys will be treated like this. Haha. Who cares if they have to makan ubat from Cikgu Nathan or not! The most important thing is I don't have to. muahaha

some of us because others were camera shy hehe

presents from tqah thanks, sister

robot played b'day song and Taylor Swift's Love Story with his er hu for me that day  sweet  thanks

they are busy eating nom nom nom

Malam Citra Puisi

Father, Darryl, Me, Qawiem and Yus

On February 19, we had our Malam Citra Puisi. I was one of the poets that are supposed to recite poem on the stage.  Our poem was Tukang Besi di Bengkel Kereta Api. Here's the poem:

Dia lelaki muda dari lembah
tak sempat menatap mata ayah
mengenggam hidup warisan alam
menukul besi
menggelek tayar kereta api
wajah merah memain percikan bunga api
ia mengetuk bersama siul kenari dunia baru
menggiling percaturan nafas
tanpa mengenal jalur kesal
demi upah semangkuk sup awal bulan

dia lelaki tiga zaman
telah dilengkungnya fajar kelabu
telah disilangnya keringat siang
dialah lelaki penakluk malam
menyentik hujan
silih berganti
jari kematunya masih mengetuk jeriji
seperti juga setia dia
menghitung malam
di bengkel tua istirahat seminit berbantal besi
dituangnya kopi sisa semalam
masih jua ia bertasbih
senyum mengenangi dia


Sebatilah alam yang dihirup
darah keringat
demi anak-anak


bisakah satu ketika
putera sulung menubah haluan?


tukang besi di bengkel kereta api
dialah ayahku
dialah pamanku
abang-abangku
itulah adik-adikku
tapi kalau kalian anak-anakku
kini, harus terdidik dari akademi tukang
yang tak lagi menjadi kuda tunggangan

 that's our so-called tukang besi hehe

Truth to be told, I've never recite a poem. Totally never on the stage for poem recitation before. Never ever. Like seriously. I've had this stage fright for standing on the stage, giving out speech. Let alone reciting a poem in front of the audience. *terror Hehe. Anyway, I gave my very best on that day. There were no forgetting lines like what I did on my Delta's KKJ.  *proud Thank God! Though it was difficult for me at the beginning during the rehearsal as I was not fluent enough in Malay language. I don't have the slang which I love to pick it up one day.  *finger crossed But I've managed to pull this through. Sad to say, we didn't win for that competition. However, the memories and experience for that night is absolutely fantastic enough for me to treasure it dearly. *sweet

 that's our Father for that poem *amazed

 

Darryl and Yana

 

Yvonne and Yus 

Our teacher and Father

It's Hard to Let You Go

For 18 years on this Earth, March 10 was the saddest day of my life. And it's still is. Why is this so? Because for all my life, I've never left behind all this fantastic people on the same day. Never. I'm serious. And yes, when I left my own school, I was not even that emotional. I did cried on that when leaving my 5 Amal class. I really did. Knowing that I've spent most of my time there, how can I ever feel nothing when leaving 5 Amal behind. I still remember every single thing we have done there. From the good things to the bad things. Anyway, back to NS. Now, it's not the time to dwell into memories of 5 Amal. I wanna write regarding on these people who are special to me and means a lot to me. And they will always remain in my heart till the end of time. *ugghh Being melodramatic again. Haha. 

That's Danial. We were in the same group for Character Building class. Our group was Fire Team. Btw, he's one of the Delta. And he's damn talkative. Like seriously. Hehe. But he's friendly. Besides that, he's a loyal text-er. *sweet Whenever I text him, he will reply me even though it's a bit late. As you can see, he's not that tall. Almost the same height as mine. Haha. He's 160 cm only. FYI, I'm 154 cm. But who cares! I can always wear high heels. *yippee

She's Fifah. We prefer to call her Kak Long Tiger. Reasons? Unknown. Hehe. Anyway, she's one of the Delta's corporal. I'm proud to be under her wings. *big, shiny eyes Ever since the CNY holidays, my alarm clock couldn't work well. Tried to change the battery. It's still remain the same. Showing the wrong time. How pathetic! Eventually, I gave up. Since then, I have depend on her  to wake me up at 5.30 a.m. Thank God, she's willing to do that. So, I wanna say thanks to her and give her XOXO too. I still remember for the first time I saw her. I mistakenly thought that she was a boy. And so I was thinking what the heck a boy is hanging around our dorm. *terror Haha.

Well, that's Farhan. We call him Paan. He's Delta's sergeant. How do I came to know him? It was during Delta's Kontrak Kita Janji. I was in need of a pen back then. And he was beside me. So, I borrowed his. And the rest is history. We were in the same class for Character Building which is PK4 like Danial. But we weren't in the same group for Module 1 and 2 though I secretly wish we were. *shhh Anyway, later on, I joined Dikir Barat team for Hari Pelatih which he was too. We were not in the same class for Kelas Kenegaraan. *ugghh How disappointing! Next up was on HIV/AIDS class. We were back into PK4. I'm glad. ^^ But at first I suppossed to be in Group 1 which he was not going to be in. So, I've cheated. I sneaked into his group which I successfully did without the teacher noticing it. *proud ^^

She's Syafikah from Charlie. Her nickname is Eyka. She stays next to my dorm which  is the A+C dorm. I can easily say Hi to her everytime I walk out of my dorm. Her motto for Charlie is 'Charlie Sejati'. Well, as for me as a Delta's member is 'Hidup Delta'. Haha. Well, she's the closest malay friend I had there. Though we do not hang out as often as others normally do there.


Last but not least, this is Padin. My 大哥 at the camp. We called him Pak Dragon after the name of our group for Kelas Kenegaraan. Haha. As our group name was Dragon, what we did on that group was mostly on Chinese culture. We did dragon dance together with Ameer, Mamu, Izam, Aswad, Apit, Emi, Min and Hoi Fen.

                                                                                                     

P.S. Thanks to you guys for all these sweet memories I've had there. Without you guys, things wouldn't be that fun at the camp. I hope that you guys will say Hi if I meet you guys anywhere on this Earth. XOXO. muacks

I ♥ Delta

I can't believe how fast time flies. *rolling my eyes NS actually ended on 10 March. No doubt I do not even wanna leave the camp. It's true. I mean, yeah, at first, I can't get used to it. But as time goes on, I'm enjoying myself every moment there. *yippee I love everything there. But it's hard to let them go. If only NS never ends. I know it'll never ever happen. Not even in a million years. Like what Sue and CT feel like joining the second batch at Tasik Meranti, Wang Kelian, Perlis. He3. I'm serious. But only if all of them joining the second batch. Things will never be the same without them. Who do I miss the most will be Yvonne, Wanni, Yunice, Paan, Padin, Danial, Ayie, Haseena and Eyka. After coming back, I keep on listening to Friends by Michael W. Smith. And without realization, tears welled up in my eyes. T______T  Every single word on that lyric resembles our friendship at the camp. 

On my last day there, we played Truth or Dare around 2 a.m. after the Malam Citra Kenangan. Obviously, we were questioning each other about the love and crushes stuff. He3. That's what girls normally do. Anyway, I planned to stay awake till 4 a.m. so that later I can hang out with my Penang friends for the last time as they are going back 5a.m.  but I ended up being the first one to doze off. How pathetic! Next will be Yunice. No doubt. Because she overslept when she's on duty at 3.30 a.m. Ha3. As for me, I woke up but my eyes were closed. And I walked around the dorm, checking on each dorm with my eyes closed. I'm serious. Not trying to be funny. I just can't stand it. But I can always online till late night but not this. *shamefaced

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

Chorus:
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends.

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

Chorus

 -Friends, Michael W. Smith.

It's All About Me and Delta

salute Tuan.

Selamat pagi, tuan.

Saya wirawati Pow Yih Ling dari kompeni Delta akan berkhidmat untuk negara sehingga 9 Mac 2010, Tuan.

Kebenaran menjalankan tugas lain, Tuan

salute Terima kasih, Tuan.

muahaha

Well, FYI, Delta is my company's name. There are Alpha, Bravo, Charlie and last but not least will be Delta. Our strength is the least compared to the other company. However, our spirit was tremendous. We are always enthusiastic in everything we do at there. No matter what happens, we always show high fighting spirit. What makes us so determined to succeed was our cheer and Delta's song. Here it's how it goes:

takut, takut, takut
x takut, x takut
gentar, gentar, gentar
x gentar, x gentar

KESATRIA champion

1 x Delta, 2 x Delta, 3 x Delta
Delta, delta, delta
kalau kurang gagah, tambah gagah
kurang kuat, tambah kuat
kurang hebat, tambah hebat
KESATRIA

K-E-S-A-T-R-I-A claps 2-2-1 x3

C-O-C-O-N-U-T
coconut kelape
kalau kalah x ape
yang penting kita cube
it's ok it's alright
KESATRIA fight fight fight
DELTA champion

Tasik Meranti tempat bertemu
bergabungan tenaga
ingin berjasa pada negara
itu matlamat kita
datang membawa harapan
pulang menggengam kejayaan
tidak gentar!! walau dicabar!!
kamilah KESATRIA

bergabung tenaga kami semua
wira wirawati bersama
ingin mengharumkan name negara
agar berada di persada dunia

kami KESATRIA
kami KESATRIA
kamilah KESATRIA

P.S. Saya sayang wira wirawati Delta. He3. muacks

Here I Come!!!

I bet you heard of the so-called kembara halangan before. If you don't, you just have to google on it for more info. Well, anyway, I'm a failure on this part. Like seriously. I blame my stupid hands. No doubt. Ha3. I can't even pass the monkey rack and the stupid tarzan swing. I ended being wet every single time. *shamefaced I dropped into the water. Just can't withstand that part. He3. But, I'm still looking ahead for every single activity there except kembara halangan. *guilt Well, at least, I've done high elements. I don't escape from that one unlike the others. *proud Though I ended up having bruises here and there. How pathetic! I freaked out while I was doing high elements. And silly part of me was that I was acting cool. Instead of I was scared to death. Ha3. Right after high elements, I  climbed up the stairs with shaky legs for flying fox. Still, I was acting calm until I landed. I let it all out. I couldn't step on that stupid landing board and I freaked out. Like seriously. *terror I can't even stand straight. I even pulled Apit's hand. And even get scolded by him. How embarassing! Thank God 大哥 was there to help me. *relieved He pulled my legs so that I can actually step on the landing board.

Right Here, Right Now, No Regrets!

This is how my life at NS camp started. I was not quite sure how's life awaits me there. Somehow or rather, I'm beginning to enjoy every single moment there. And I love it. So much. Like seriously. My first and second days were the torturous moments in my whole life. *exaggerated a lil' I cried every time I called my parents. *shamefaced At that moment, I just wanna get out of there. A.S.A.P. Right now, knowing that it's gonna end soon, I knew I'm gonna miss this camp. So much. T_____T Btw, I do miss my buddies from time to time. I love you guys. XOXO Back to NS camp....*flipping through my diary

 It just hit me that I whined a lot on my first week there. *sighs Anyway, I've changed a lot. Ummm, a little perhaps. At least I did changed. OK??!! Lee Lean is the first friend I know there other  than Geetha but she left after 2 weeks later and so is Kee. *teary eyes FYI, Geetha is my schoolmates since Convent primary school. How coincidence! However, it was most amazing experience knowing Lee Lean and Kee though, it was just a short two weeks. We don't clicked immediately like some other campers. It took quite some time for me to actually communicate with them as you know my mandarin sucks. Like seriously. But not anymore. *proud

I mean I did mention I love NS but somehow or rather there are things I hate there. Like waking up at 5. Though I've said it earlier that it was no longer a BIG DEAL for me. Still, who doesn't want to sleep a little longer. Especially when one has to wake up at 5 during the weekdays. Next will be the cold water during my morning bath. OMG. I was shivering like hell. Truth to be told, I skipped my morning bath most of the time. Ewww. *disgusting Normally, I will wash my face and brush my teeth. Off to physical training till 7.30a.m. Before the 8.30 class, I will then have my shower. *serious I know some of the campers did not shower for like 3 days and they depend on their perfume most of the time. But not me.

 

Getting Ready for National Service

After class clothing checked
Personal use item checked
Soap, detergent, brush and hanger checked
Pajamas checked
PE shirts checked
Medicine and lotion checked  thanks ateliergal for the reminders
No dangerous weapon checked
No alcoholic drinks checked
No pornographic items *duh checked
No cigarettes checked i hate smokers
No jeweleries checked  i'm poor
No hand-phone T______T checked 
Money less than RM200 checked i'm bringing my pennies only
*pathetic

All set. I'm gonna prove to my dad that I'm NOT feeble and coward. I believe that I'm strong and tough in some ways. *yeah Wait and see. ^^