Am I Being Selfish?

I just got an answer from her. And it's a 'YES'. I never thought that seeing friends leaving me and this hometown can be this hard.

tkah: fr now, my decision is yes. its hard fr me too lahh babe. malacca is far away. :'(

The moment i saw the word 'YES', silent tears fell from the corner of my eyes. Why do they have to leave? One by one leaving here. Yue planning to move Malacca then Pei Ching to AIMST. Now, it's her turn. In a split second, my world has turned upside down. Knowing that soon, both of them will be at south and I'm at north. All alone. I thought I can change their decision no matter what. Even if it means in selfish or cruel way. And so I realized how selfish I am. Yue is about 12 years of friendship. And it's definnitely hard for me to let go of her. I though I can make up for what happened last year. I hate the fact that everything is fated. Papa, so what if I don't believe in fate. And neither do I believe in God. Don't you think God is cruel? What I want he never gave me instead what I hate he just throw it straight in front of my face, expecting me to figure it out  how to deal with it. YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT! Darn it! 

And Facebook is giving me a hard time. Darn it! Service Unavailable. DNS failure.

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Gosh! How many time do you want me to try again. Please have some mercy to me. Please. Please, Facebook. When I'm not 'addicted' to using it, hell-yeah it works fine, but now, this is totally unacceptable. I've been trying the whole day, for goodness' sake. Eff-ed you, Facebook! And my MSN keep on disconnecting. WTH is wrong  with today? In conclusion, MSN and Facebook hates me. =(